I have a lot going on this weekend, to say the least. I got back yesterday from visiting home in Ohio for a week. Online OCDcon started today; I presented this evening and will present again tomorrow. This morning, I spent four hours getting blood work done to see if I’ve developed Type 2 diabetes as a result of having PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome). Tomorrow, I start graduate school for my MFA in writing. And my boyfriend comes home after being in Wisconsin for work for seven weeks. Like I said, it’s a lot.
And sure, most of what’s going on this weekend is positive. But that doesn’t mean it can’t still be overwhelming. I have a hard time with change, whether the change is good or bad. For example, I’m really looking forward to seeing my boyfriend in person again, but being around someone I haven’t seen in weeks is still an adjustment. It takes me a bit to get back in the swing of talking and our relationship. I’m excited to start graduate school, but I’m still nervous. School in the past has been a stressful experience for me, largely because of OCD and other mental health struggles. I want to think graduate school will go better since I am much healthier, but I still have concerns.
I think it’s a misconception that we can only ever be scared or overwhelmed or uncomfortable by something deemed “bad.” In reality, “good” things can cause discomfort too. Sometimes there is so much excitement or joy or happiness, that it is uncomfortable as well. And that’s okay.
I don’t have much to say on this because the weekend is just getting started, but I wanted to validate that the positive can be overwhelming too. Wish me luck!